Thursday, September 15, 2011

Shattered Dreams

We loved you from the very start, you stole our breath, you embraced our hopes and dreams.  You are a part of us sweet little one, and will live forever within our hearts.  Her name is Alaina Pearl.  Jesus calls her His angel.  She is also our angel, looking over us each day...Comforting her Mama and Daddy by blowing them sweet kisses each day. 

Life is so precious… grab it and hold on tight, never take anyone for granted as they can be taken from you in a heartbeat.  Tell them you love them every day. 
Why?  We asked that question over and over.  We still have no answer.  I feel like the harder I press for the answer the less likely it is to come. I guess time will tell, and maybe it won’t.  We struggle with the pain, the grief, the sorrow, and even anger for the unfairness of it all. I watch as my only child suffers mentally and physically…now she suffers a huge loss and has an empty spot in her big heart.  A spot that holds love for her baby and an over whelming sorrow that she is no longer here with us. I guess time and strength given through God will heal all that hurts.  But the memories never fade or go away.  Alaina came into this world quietly and left it with tiny angel wings.  She is loved.  She is precious.  She was our miracle. To love that precious little one is a love like no other.   It’s amazing how much you can love her when you never got to cuddle her in your arms, never got to look into her beautiful eyes, or see her precious smile as she giggled.
To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever…The pain weakens, there are others that come into your life, but the gap never closes…you never forget…The hole in your heart is the shape of the one you lost ~ no one else can fit in it.
Alaina sweet angel
I will visit with you in my dreams.  We will play together, read books, laugh and be silly and bake cookies.  I will love you forever and you will never be forgotten.  I will see you in heaven one day…Save a place for me.
Love, Your Grammie

Sometimes the things we cannot change…end up changing us~ 

 
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit
Psalm 34:18

23 comments:

Clara {Clover and Violet} said...

My heart and my prayers are with you and your family. His mercies are new every morning.

BumbleBeeLane said...

Sweet Cora~ I've been were you are and my heart broke all over reading this today.You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.Although you won't forget and the pain remains it does get better in time.Big hug for you!~Amy

Kathleen Grace said...

Oh Cora, I am so sorry. I am adding you and your family to my prayers. Sending my love

Kathy

Unknown said...

So sorry!!!!

Rachel Hope said...

My heart breaks for you and your sweet family. things like this are never easy, you will be in my prayers.
Rachel Hope
http://hopespuntreasures.blogspot.com/

Cindy said...

Lord Jesus hold my friend Cora in your arms of strength and comfort. Show her the path of healing...and the words of comfort to her precious daughter. Lord Jesus it is so hard for us to see the big picture...comfort Cora as only you can. Let her know she is loved by us here in blogland. Our prayers are with her and her darling family. You have another seet angel...we will see all our angels someday.

Cora Wendy has had 4 children...for each one who has survived...one was sent to Heaven.
The same with My Kimmie...two here two in Heaven. I have six precious grandchildren at the feet of Christ and one of my own little ones there. I know the heartache you are going thru!! Keep your eyes and faith on Him. I pray she has a Dr. who will get to some answers. For my girls it was they needed to take hormone shots to hold onto the baby.

Cora Love you..Cindy from Rick-Rack and Gingham

Kim @ Homesteader's Heart said...

Oh my friend, I truly am sorry. I'll be saying an extra prayer for you and your family today!
BIG HUGS!
Kim

Janettessage.blogspot.com said...

I am soooooooooooo sooooooooooo sorry...there truly aren't words to say, been there myself and also with my daughter-in-law...such a great loss and only the Lord can bring His healing

Prayers for all of you...so, so sorry!

Courtney @ splashing grace said...

Cora, I'm so very sorry. I'm praying for your family - may God's comfort be very real to you all.

Tara said...

Cora I am so sorry for your family's loss. I hope and pray one day another little one will make it's way into your life, healthy and enfolded in your arms. God Bless, I will say a prayer for your family.

Tracy said...

{{hugs}} to all!!

Remember, HE knows who you are and is aware of your needs!!

I'm praying for you all!

Susan said...

Cora, I am so very sorry for your loss. I know how devastated you must feel. My heart goes out to you and your family.

Susan

trish said...

Dearest Cora.
My deepest heartfelt condolences to you all. I am terribly sorry for your loss and holding you all very close to my heart in prayer. May the God of comfort, comfort you and provide a place of refuge during this difficult time.
Sincerely, Trish

Sewn With Grace said...

Oh Cora, I'm so sorry. May you find comfort in His word. May you trust in His sovereign plan. May He soothe your aching soul and wipe each tear that falls. "Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."
Lam.3:22-24
Praying for you!

Brittany said...

Not a day goes by that I don't think about y'all!!! I am so sorry for your loss. xoxo

Mary @ Neat and Tidy said...

Holding you all in prayer.

Cindy said...

Cora, I am so sorry for your loss. I am sending prayers for you and your family, saying a special prayer for Holly. you are so right, things that we cannot change....end up changing us...big hug, I know how much pain you are in. holding your hand.

Kendra Quilts said...

My heart and prayers go out to you. I lost my little grandbaby, Tyler,14 months old, 2 years ago. I feel your pain. Love you, Kendra

Angie Berry ~ Berry Homespun Primitives said...

My dear sweet friend, I am so very sorry you and Holly are going through this. It is quite odd... I have never met either of you in person yet I have been grieving the loss of Alaina Pearl with you. I cried big tears and had such a heavy heart when I first heard the news. I had been following your Alaina Pinterest board and smiled every single time I saw another cute little picture then the pin came that told me the news and all I could do was sit there and cry. I am crying right now, which is why I have put off writing to you. I know there is nothing I can say that will help heal the pain. I have held you both and Jackie and Richard in my prayers daily. You know God has a reason for this that you may never know. You also know that God has a plan for Holly & Richard. I take great comfort in knowing that you all are surrounded by God's amazing love & grace and that He will be with you. Hugs, love and prayers for you all dear friend.

Sweet Bee Cottage said...

I am so sorry. Prayers are being sent up right now for you and yours.

Julie Harward said...

I am so sorry Cora...this is a sadness that hurts a womans heart to the very core...sensing you big hugs.

Unknown said...

I am sooooo soooo sorry for you loss and that of the parents..
You are right, those questions may never get answered. But one thing you do know already,is that she is loved,by you and held by God..
Again Im so sorry,,and we all morn with you.. may God hug you all with comfort and peace as your heart heals..

Kim @ Homesteader's Heart said...

Thinking of you today my friend and pray you are doing well.
HUGS
Kim